What a day. Where to start...well...I didn't get to sleep until after 4 this morning. I was up all night with Sophie as she was coughing like crazy. I decide that I'd better suck it up and get to work because of the looming job interview. By the time I get there, I'm feeling nauseous and on the verge of tears. No sooner do I sit at my desk, I get called into the boss' office. "Oh shit" I think...my gut tightens cause I know there must be something wrong with the new job. Sure enough, she thinks that I'm not actually elegible because I don't have 2 years experince, which you have to have or have the appropriate courses...which I don't have. I'm at 17 months. So, what do I do? I have a meltdown in her office. Nice.
Luckily, I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be. It's not over, she wasn't totally sure, but I have a feeling that is not going to happen. I was so exhausted that I just couldn't keep it together. So long story short...that was the end of my day. I came home, cried and cried and cried....watched Grey's and Private Practice, cried some more, cause OMG Private Practice is a real tear jerker lately, then had a nap. I ate like crap, didn't exercise, and despite a pounding headache, I feel much better.
Now tomorrow morning, I'll get up (hopefully I get to sleep) and be okay. That's one thing about me...I bounce back quickly. The opportunity will come up again, and I'll try again, but in the end...everything happens for a reason. And, if she doesn't follow the rules, I could get the job but then someone gets upset and files a grievance, and I get bumped out of it. So really, if it's not my time...I just have to accept that. Will know for sure tomorrow.
Now to bed...please let my kid sleep....PPPPLLLLEEEEAAAASSSSEEE!
Oh Steph! I am so sorry to hear you had such a bad day! I like the positive spin you put on it though - maybe it isn't the right time. Instead take this time to focus on you, and do your job as usual. Steph time is always a good thing :)
ReplyDeleteChin up!
*hugs*
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