Steph - Day 27 - Feeling a little angry

So today I discovered that I'm a little angrier than I'd first thought. About work I mean. It was pretty hard for me to be there today. But, I'll have to suck it up and move on cause I have a
job...right?
I managed to get in a beautiful walk on my lunch break today, but I didn't get to the gym. I've been feeling like my daughter is acting out so much because she needs more of me. It's a struggle to know what is the right thing to do because both me time and Sophie time are equally important. Tonight, after a hellish weekend with her, I decided it best to come home. I made the right decision. I walked in the door and she clung to me until going to bed. It was great...we played some games, watched a little TV, had a nice family supper....I think we all needed a little time together.

Now with Sophie tucked into her little bed and my husband watching the car race, I'd better go do a little reading then get to bed. If I'm going to behave and keep my mouth shut at work tomorrow, I'd better be well rested!

Goodnight

Steph - Day 26 - Much better day

Today turned out to be such a beautiful day. So sunny! The archery shoot was awesome! Got my best score yet...344 out of a possible 400 points! Six of us shooting in our group and I won..but quite a bit! LOL! I love healthy competition! (And..I beat my husband...which NEVER happens!)

I was a little sore this moring after my workout yesterday, which surprised me a little cause I didn't think I had a good workout. Well, the shooting course is basically a 3 hour hike, which you walk twice, and yikes, I'm feeling it! I also packed a lunch - a sandwhich (not that great but better then the burgers they sell), carrots, yogurt and an apple - which made the hike actually worth something!

I'm going not to lay on the couch, drink tea, and hopefully relax. Much better day than yesterday, and I'm just hoping that today helped to pull me up out of my funk.

Feel better Cher!

Hope the week is great!

Cher - Day 25 - Fitness & Sickness!

So I am sick again! There are some nasty bugs going around, and I caught it. This puts a damper on the active weekend for sure! Also I have zero appetite. I am hoping tomorrow will be better. On the plus side I was sore for 2 days after Thursdays workout - that did make me feel better!

So with the illness, I only got in 3 workouts this week. My goal is to get at LEAST 3 workouts in next week. Doable? I think so!

Enjoy your Sunday!!!

Cher
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Steph - Day 25 - Oops!

So...apparently I forgot to blog last night! OOPS! Wow, I totally didn't realize until now! Last thing I remember is my husband waking me up to go to bed.

I'm sure glad this week is over. I have to admit, I got myself into a little bit of a funk over this whole job business. Found out for sure that I don't have enough experience and I'm not going to get it. The worst part is that financially, it would have helped us so much. We are struggling horribly, like many others, and the struggle is becoming unbearable. I let myself get to excited, and worked up...and then the let down hurt...A LOT. But again, it is what it is...and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and turns out exactly as it was meant to.

I finally made it to the gym today, but I didn't have that great of a workout. I have an archery shoot tomorrow to go to, which will mean a full 5 - 6 hours of walking...which I'm really looking forward to! I'm hoping a day in the fresh air with friends will help bring me back to normal.

Night

Steph - Day 23 - Plugging away

The struggle with weight is never ending. I don't know if I'm putting too much thought into it, or if I'm not putting enough into it. Somedays I feel like it's all I think about...and I think that those are the days I eat the worst. The days I don't think about it, I feel guilty and then end up obsessing! hahaha!

The exercise part of healthy living comes easily for me, thank goodness, but this eating nonsense is starting to feel like it's getting the better of me. I feel like it's excuse after excuse. At the end of the day, I have no self control. I WANT to eat well, I enjoy eating well, I like the way I feel when I eat well, I hate the way I feel when I don't eat well, but put something in front of me that I shouldn't eat...yep...I'm gunna eat it. And then, on top of eating the bad stuff, I feel so guilty about it, I eat the good stuff too! Even though I'm not hungry.

And lately, I feel like my desire to be thin is overtaking my desire to be healthy. And yes I want both, but I don't want one without the other. I wish that both would just be handed to me sometimes! But hard work pays off and feels so good. I'll keep plugging away and every time I fall off the wagon, I'll hop back on and start all over again.....

Night!

Cher - Day 23 - Sweat Everywhere!

Holy Crap!  This workout kicked my A**!

I did modify a few things:

1. My wrists started to kill by the 3rd round - so for the plank walk + knee repeaters I took out the walk and added push up bars to ease off on my wrists a bit.  I did extra core at the end to make up for it.
2. I haven't been doing THIS many pushups in my workouts, so full pushups didn't last with good form.  I switched to good old girlie pushups but did the rest of the exercises (ie. tuck jumps)
3. Since my wrists were pooched, for the second half I switched from triceps using wrists (I don't have the dip station) to skull crushers on the mat with dumbells.

Remember guys, there are modifications for almost EVERYTHING!  I have tons of issues with wrists, neck (MVA), knees etc.  but I still did it, and I still sweat a TON!

I did this in just under 20 minutes.  I will do it again next week sometime and see if I can beat my time.  Consistency is KEY!

Have an awesome Thursday - the weekend is almost here!

Hugs,

Cher

Steph - Day 22 - I Passed!!!

Today was definately a better day! I had to stop this afternoon and really listen to what my body was telling me though. I slept last night, THANK GOD, but had a rough time getting up today. I made it to work and couldn't wait to go for a walk in the sunshine. I thought for sure that that would make me feel better. But when I got back, I got dizzy and I was totally out of breath. I think that my body was telling me that I need to just rest for another day. So, I listened and didn't go to the gym. I believe it was the right decision, but I'm missing "the burn" I'd be feeling right now if I'd have gone!

This road that I've been on the last few weeks, has actually made me realize a few things about myself. I do too much, I push myself too hard sometimes, I talk when I shouldn't, I put way too much effort into some things and way to little into other things, I don't give myself enough credit, and mostly...I need to deal with stress better! And if that's what this "adventure" was all about, well, GOOD.

I've really got to change a few things. I'm stressed, not sleeping enough and not eating well enough, and all three of those are a deadly combination. I'm going to try to settle down and not take on as much responsibility, sleep better (although that's super tough with a little one...cause let's face it....mom's are WAY better than dad's when you aren't feeling well) and concentrate on feeding my body better. All good changes to make!

So really, when I look at how I'm feeling today, and what I've realized about myself, this whole job thing has been a test...and I passed! :) And I still don't know for sure if I'm going to be disqualified, but it will be what it will be. And quite honestly, I'm comfortable with whatever happens. I know that one day I will advance, and when that day comes, all of struggles I've overcome, will make it that much sweeter!

Thanks for your encouraging words Cher! xoxo

Good night
*hugs*